Tuesday, April 26, 2005

Dream Journal - 04/26/05

In a rare dream experience, I dream I am another person/character and not myself. But I assume this person represents myself...

I am Sheriff Andy Taylor (Andy Griffith) and along with my trusty deputy Barney we are trying to defend the courthouse from an invader and protect little Opie.

Well, except it's not "The Courthouse TM" from TV, but a larger building - more modern, with many shadows, steel railings and stairs, carpet and back and side entrances. And I don't think it's actually Opie we're protecting, but that's the sense I get from being Andy.

Eventually, through several chases we capture the suspect - who looks a lot like (or is being played by) former Saturday Night Live star Jimmy Fallon. I handcuff him and do something with him (don't recall what).

But all is still not well - there is someone else trying to get in. I alternate perspectives of myself and Barney and we try to chase and round up this guy. Eventually we find him and I (Andy) tackle him and attempt to supdue him. I can't tell who he is, but has very vivid red/orange hair. I recall being very angry, and almost too rough with the guy after he's down.


Am I resentful or fearful of someone intruding into my "safe" places? I try to think I'm a welcoming and inviting person. Not sure what this means...

Monday, April 25, 2005

Dream Journal - 04/23/05

This was was quite disturbing, actually. In a way that will become clear, later.

I am apparently at a baseball game, or some other sporting event or exhibition. I walk around behind the bleachers in the outfield (?), and they are the old, wooden, rickety kind. It's getting dark, and there are shadows underneath the bleachers. The headroom is pretty cramped, but I'm looking in...and I see a young woman sitting on the ground far underneath the bleachers.

I am concerned about her, so I get down on my belly and start to wriggle under the bars - there is no room to just walk or climb through. I realize at this point that all I am wearing is a pair of short underwear briefs.

As I crawl closer, I see she is actually a fairly young girl, maybe 13 or so. She has long black hair, and is naked and very beautiful in an exotic way. She's sitting on the ground, just looking at me. I get to the open space where she's sitting and I ask her who she is, and what's wrong.

She motions a note sitting on the ground next to her. I pick it up and start to read - it appears to be a certificate of some kind, announcing that "You Are the Winner!, and as your prize you get to keep and use this girl in any way you like. She is quite gifted and can satisfy you in many, many ways." I look up at her, and ask her if this is true. She turns her head and smiles shyly..

I am struck by pity for her, and can't believe someone would put her in a situation like this. However, I cannot help but be attracted and drawn by the terms of the contest.. I realize she is way too young even if I agreed to it, and try to talk to her - thinking of ways I can get her out of there, and too safety.

But as I speak, I find myself subconsciously moving over to her, opening up my legs.

She reaches down...


And I awake, violently. Startled. And extremely aroused, and ashamed.

I feel like I had been given some kind of test, and I failed miserably...

Sunday, April 17, 2005

Dream Journal - 04/17/05

I'm a guest in someone's home -- someone with a very opulant home. The furnishings are very fancy, and there are servants in the house.

I'm changing clothes, and am walking around in my room naked. I need to take something into another room and think there's nobody home. As I walk in the other room I'm surprised to run into one of the servants, a young mid-late-20's woman with dark hair cleaning up something. She's startled to see me naked, and I apologize as I beat a hasty retreat.

I'm walking back to my room, as I sense she's standing in the doorway of the other room watching my rear just I disappear through the door. I even slow up just the tiniest bit to make sure she sees it.

I'm then standing in my own room, and she comes in herself without asking. She proceeds to begin straightening up my room. She makes a joke, "So I suppose you're just going to stand there so I can see your penis?"

I'm not embarrassed, in fact I believe she's enjoying seeing me. However, I do get embarrassed as I feel myself begin to get an erection.

I don't get the sense she plans to do anything about it, though.

Friday, April 01, 2005

Dream Journal - 04/01/05

Another Disney Dream.

I am at Walt Disney World with my family. We're riding along in one of the trains that run around the part when I look out and see our cat running loose around some of the buildings we're passing by. I jump out of the train and try to track down our cat. I pass through several rides and attractions until I eventually catch him.

I'm carrying him back to meet my family when two young kids start walking with me and chatting. I let the older of the two hold my cat, and they eventually leave. When I meet my family, I realize the kid still has the cat and I forgot to take him back.

So I get on the train, jump off again at the same spot and try to retrace my steps. I realize the way going is more difficult this time and things have changed...